You already have everything you need to be courageous. You just need to find that out for yourself.
If you feel afraid and anxious it doesn’t mean that you are lacking courage, in fact it is quite the opposite. Without fear you cannot have courage.
“I learned that courage was not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it.” Nelson Mandela
It is time to focus on your strengths and resources.
To help you on your way here is a link to a free survey tool that will help you to assess your strengths. You have to register, but it is a reputable organisation https://www.viame.org/www/en-us/aboutviame.aspx
And take a look at your values, those principles that you hold to be important and will guide you in your decisions. This list may help.
Find your support. We each have our own personal journey to make, but we don’t have to be alone. Seek the support of those members of family and friends who en-courage you. And look for like-minded people to share your journey.